cRiMsOn MaDnEsS

2010-06-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

my gosh
1 mth i've been unemployed oredy
really2 want a job but i preder office hr job
:P

finally i've changed my blogskin
its just something simple
blech..
bye2!

2010-05-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

i hv a confession to make,

im highly jealous of those who get to continue into poly this yr but
i only hv myself to blame for getting a low gpa
i wanted to give up
but my seniors said dont
there others that gpa same as u has gotten into poly

i hate looking at ppl status saying poly this n tat
becos im jealous of them
i was once like tat
entering ite
i complain sch tiring all at fb
then one person status make me wake up
be glad ur in sch,there's others who want ur position in school but cant make it

those who get to continue their education now
they are pursuing their education now
without having wasting any time in between
be glad that u could enter into school now
while i have to stay at home
everyday looking for work
going crazy here because im scared
what if i cant find any job for another half yr like by bro was once
who's gonna support me?
pay my bills?
hate being 18 n near to young adult
u hv to think all this stuff

im being annoyingli emo right now
goodbye

2010-05-13T02:01:00.001+08:00

hahahahaah!! omg long time never update
just so damn lazy to update
things n craps as been going on
just cant wait to see love tmrw!
and also wish me gd luck for tis fri..interview ...brr...nervous a bit

2010-03-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

7 months and going..
nt everything is perfect
we do have fights n tears
but we still love each other
cheh wahhhh

im hit by stomach flu right nw
plus diarhoee
damn painful stomach cramp
lagi rabak dari stomach cramp when ur having menses

i seriosly have no life right nw
been trying to find a job
n i have nth to update actually
ciao!

i love u :)
lets always hold each other hands

2010-03-15T01:31:00.002+08:00

went to watch alice in wonderland with bf ...i like the show!! its really nice!!!

we meet only once a week now..is it wrong of me to ask u to stay a little bit longer with me?
do i hv to write it on my forehead that i wanted u to stay??
if ur in ns at least i cn understand
but its nt!!
yeah we life far apart..then kalo near cn ton uh?
when shits happen wat u say
dh jadi..ape i boleh buat skrg
best!! gg!!!

hw cn i do nt hv the thinking of everything stupid in my head when i feel it that u dun want to spent time wit me?
hw cn i nt have alot of insecurities ?
im just always second to u
when i ask u seriusly hu am i really in ur life?
u ignore it..u thought im just playing with u
but seriusly sumtimes i feel im just sumthing insignificant in ur life

i let u in my heart just please hold it securely ..trust me,,its very fragile right now

2010-02-23T22:52:00.001+08:00

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

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found this in tumblr..tot of posting it up here..very btol dont u think?

push n pull

2010-02-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

hais i just dunno whats going on with me
2 weeks left to exam and im just like slacking
only in class do i truly study
but once out of class i heck care
i dunno why but i feel like im bored with studying
but at the same time in my heart i want to continue studying
urghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
and im left with not even 2 weeks...its lesser than 2 weeks !!!
arghhhhhhhhh!!!

im banning myself from going out on weekdays...weekends? i do not know
hais...im just getting freaking lazy
the cycle is just happening again
hais

what can i say..i miss my love..:(

thx alot

2010-02-21T20:14:00.004+08:00

disappointment
tears
anger
everything i've been bottling it up
i tried being understanding
i give in to all ur whims
but just today when i badly need you with me
what did i get
and u said i'm ur girlfriend
maybe what i've done is just not enough for u
maybe im not good enough for u

maybe to u its just sunday today
but to me its more than a sunday

emotions turmoil

2010-02-21T01:37:00.005+08:00

for once i wanted to have something more than u

sunday is here now
but i'll have to wait till around afternoon or even evening then will be meeting him
6 months :)

watch 3 movies today
1st was american psycho but i just scan that
2nd was justice league the cartoon movie
best u know!!
abt them n an alternate earth where their justice league is jahat
last was batman: the dark knight
and i just know that the main actor in american psycho is also the same guy that play bruce wayne in batman the dark knight...
but before that i head to the books
im starting to sux in auditing cos nth in my head abt it!
so i just did my accounting
blech

im sad
didnt talk to him one whole day today
:(

ur the melody in my heart

2010-02-20T03:41:00.003+08:00

at last i changed my blogskin!!
nw my blog all soo pinky!!
hahahaha!!
had my blog went pink before?
hmmmm

i cant wait for sunday
everyweek with no exception
i will always look forward to sunday
because thats the only day that confirm chop2 i will meet bf
n tis sunday is much2 special
:)
but everyday with him is special

i have a tumblr account now..
heheheh

i love u

2010-02-17T21:51:00.001+08:00

bestfriend

boyfriend
a fren
a lover

only TWO WEEKS LEFT!! arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

2010-02-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

its sunday
met him
and as usually he was late!
hmph
get to spent only near 2 hrs only with him
its nt enough after not meeting him for a few days
haish
i just miss him too much
but i understand
next time just please tell me wats going on
rather than im thinking of stupid stuff in my head
i love u so damn much
for the first time in a relationship i feel like this
he really bring out things in me that i nvr even knew of
kk aziah dah start emo
abisss
-_-

sumthing unexpected happen
i ignored it
cos i dun want to loase another frenship
or was tat just my imagination??
neh nvm
as long as everything ok im fine with it
:)

tmrw is school
thank god my mondays always starts at ten
then tmrw have snw theory
die
X_X

no pictures
cos im just so damn lazy to upload it frm my hp
n my face all sememek
hahahahahah!!!!

same ole same ole

2010-02-03T16:10:00.002+08:00

school ended at 1
supposedly someone wanted to fetch me
but ended up gonna be late
i went home 1st
im sorry
i cant be the one always waiting
always wondering when ur gonna reach
this had happen on too many occasion that i cant have it happen again
its wasn't once or twice
my patience has been running on a thin line
and today finally the line had disappear

i was really looking forward to seeing u
but as usual
my hope was thrown out of the window just like that
n till now i still do not know whats ur excuse for today

till when will this go on?
till when will u continue doing this?

when i reach home,my body temperature was feeling really warm
maybe due to the sun that is shinning really bright

1 mth and few days left only till the FINAL paper exams
and i am only 10% prepared
ok
i think below 10% prepared
each day after school when i reached home
i thought urghh let me have a nap first then later i'll study
never happen
why?
easy cos i'll sleep all the way till night time
and when woke up,my mood to study is just not there
hehe

i wonder if iqah wake up oredy
i really wanted to meet her today
but at the same time i have a assignment to do as tomorrow it will need to be checked on
hmmm...
arghh!!
my stomach grumbling oredy
i still havent it since i reach home at 2 just now
goodbye!!

i had really wanted to meet bf today
but due to some circumstances
it didnt happen

love waiting

2010-02-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

again and again
the same thing
i think its not worth for my saliva to be wasted
after all its the same thing happening again
nth heard frm u
the same excuses
then lead to arguements
even still with all this
i just cant stop myself from loving u

u just love to make me wait
even after countless time i beg u to try n change
at least message me or sumthing if ur gonna be late
still the same
reason??
the same

im turning too soft
i even sanggup wait for u for 2 hrs like a stupid fool
i tell myself
thats the last time im gonna do
next time
there's gonna be time limit
why i had to go to this extend??
bcos whenever tis happens,we fight
those in fault make it like its not their fault

but still it never make me change my heart
i still love u to the fullest
and like u hope
i too hope
we'll be together for a long time

school gonna be ending in just 1 mth plus
must start to panic n chiong for my auditing and accounting
cant wait for the 3rd week of february

ever wonder what u gonna do after school life??
what if u cant get wat u wanted n need plan b?
serious speaking,i hv no idea where to go
i do not have a planned future
all i know is i want to continue studying
but in what area?
yes business
but what course?
and february 8 is coming
poly opening for jae registration
and i still have no idea what to enter to
ok tat part bedek
i like to enter either business management of business studies
but then i ask the what if
what if i couldnt get in
then where should i go?
working??
hais
growing up just sux i guess
still remember when we're still kids
free n easy
play around
bla bla bla
now
bloody hell
soon gonna be 19 lah sei!!
O_O

i've been depriving myself from social life with my frens
my everyday life is like this: school->home->eat->com->afternoon sleep->wake up->com or studying
-_-
saaving up my moolas for sumting
hehe

i think thats all for today
what can i say
i just have a very plain life
:)

2010-01-24T23:05:00.003+08:00

:)
i doubt anyone is reading my blog
been really lazy to update my blog
i havent even upload the pictures taken on the 21st of jan
where we went to watch the toothfairy at ehub
it was really nice
and 5th mth me n him together
:)
i cant wait till nxt mth
but at the same time i dun want it to be too fast
bcos
exams are coming
my finals sumore
i kept thinking n asking him
wat if i cant enter poly
i just duun see myself in poly
but at the same time i want to continue studying
i want to show some ppl not to look down on me
but then im not a positive thinker
i always downgrade my self
hais

school ending in just 2 more mths i think
the FINAL exam is coming in like only 1 mth plus
n i still havent start on my revision
just 10% on auditing
n tmrw die,gonna start new topic for accounting
i realise sumting
im doing back what i did during my o's
where i started to really skip school and heck studies when my exams are coming soon
then later gonna regret it like hell
damn it
hais

wedges!!

2010-01-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

had a blast with iqah
actual plan was to meet at 1pm
at last due to both me n her waking up late
we met at 4pm
stupid perverted apek tried to do sumting to iqah
bloody hell siak
dh tk sedar pe dah tua
omg

so we went to bugis
i bought 3 stuff
n can say tats the most i bought during my shopping
cos whenever i shopping
i ussually shop for accesories
not those things i wear one
n tada!!!
my first love in sight wedges!!
(is tat how they spell it??)
n white covered shoes
n leggings
i really love my wedges
hahahahahha!!!
when i wear it straight iqah keep saying
'chey wah anak mak dah jadi perempuan seh'
-_-
cos cn say tats like my 1st time really wanting a wedges
did u knw the initial price for it was actually $30+
it was on a discount of only $15!!!
ape lagi!!!
grab while i can!!
hahahhahah!!!!

then at last me n iqah get to eat wat we crave for
iqah=durian ice cream
me=choco mint ice cream
it was heaven!!

we proceed to bedok skatepark
where we laugh our ass off
padahal 2 org aje tau
tapi bising
the big group near us was so quiet
while we who only hv 2 ppl were so noisy
-_-
n i laugh till like want to semput
no sound kuar pun ade
hahhahahah!!!

nw im sad
cos
nth
lol
just miss him alot
:(

nightss

coward

2010-01-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

woahhh
the first post for the new year
2010
as usual lah eh aziah katekn
tk update2 blog die
heheeheheheh

tmrw starting school at 8
and im still wide awake
waiting for bf i guess
:P
just nw went to np open house
got a clearer view of wat course i want n am interested in
n i still remember one of the lecturer say
nw is the time to focus more on getting a good gpa
do our best

it was fun going there
even talk to some of the lecturers there
one from school of humans n the other is from school of business n accountancy

tmrw me and gui luan going to nyp open house
i feel like wanting to go to sp open house too
hahahahah
rp only now the current poly that i have not step into
hahahahahx

wow now really left 2 months only till exams n graduate
i really hope to pass my 2 modules
especially my advanced accounting II
n not only pass
bt i would like to get a B grade for both
kk tats too high for my AAII
maybe a C for AAII??
ahhh damn!!!

i did sumting shit again
i hate myself for this
its my fault but i kept making it as if its his fault
my ego get the best of me
im really sorry

210809

2009-12-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

2009-12-24T00:23:00.004+08:00

roarrrrrrr
*wink*
hahhaahahaha!!!

went out to east coast at the afternoon of dec 23
with gui luan n rong hui
waiting for gl to upload the photos
at first we all wanted to roller blade
rong hui wanted to try
me n gui luan long time didnt blade so wanted to try back
at last all gave up
seriusly lost the basic skill for roller blading
im just gonna stick to cycling

so went home ard 4+
at night met with bf
just hang out around my house area
then iqah sa n ef came down too
but just for a few minutes cos they nid to go pasir ris then
so just left me n fahmi till 10+
then fahmi send me home

so now here i am
near 1 more wk to school!!!!
byeee!!!

long long time

2009-12-22T01:51:00.002+08:00

a week of school holiday have past
ad what have i done??
keep going out everyday
and i mean EVERYDAY
oh my gosh!!!
initial plan was to go search for work
at last ni yg jadi
kluar kluar n kluar
hahahahah!!!

monday 21st dec,went play soccer at school
n urs truly am a kaki bangku
dunno play one
so just kick n play
become keeper sumore
luck is at my side i think!!!!
dpt prvent some balls from entering the goal!!
tuu pun nasib baik the guys tak main tendang kuat2
kalo tak mampus gue
jadi keeper aje pun im still tired
damn i really am weak now
hahahah!!

then went watch movie at sc room
both ghost story
and both i had watch
but i just cant help getting scared by it
im one big scaredy cat (sp?)

tmrw plan
shoot
i really nid to finish up my accounting assignment
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

byeeeee!!!

thx to bf for scaring me with the story
only wan n iqah knws wat happen
my gosh
>_<
i think they are laughing at me when i ask them for the favor
-_-"

park

2009-12-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

i thought of going home straight today
surprise2!!! iqah n co came to bishan to fetch me
wohoo!!
tk lah b4 that they were at toa payoh
so bishan was nearby so iqah tot of dropping there n take me home too
not really home
we went to bedok reservoir park where just relax off our mind
then near 8 went off
sa n efwat went home
while me n iqah went to bedok interchange
initial plan was to see for watches cos both of our watches dah mati
mine more to the tali putus
:(
at last ape yg kkite gi tgk
hair dyes
hahahahah

so eventually i didnt go home straight
hahahah
k my hand is really itchy
i really want to colour my hair
im in live with like orangey2 colour but i also love the other colour
light bronw blonde gitu
forgot the name
but i really2 want orangey2 color but not that too orange n not too bright

tmrw still have school

nights everyone

143

2009-12-06T15:29:00.003+08:00

i dunno why but i just feel like wanting to update my blog now
suppose to go out n meet at 4
but here i am now still havent get ready or what
waiting for certain someone to get out off house then i get ready
but now while waiting,im kinda a bit lazy to go out
wanna know why?
bcos the weather is still the cooling weather!
mintak suruh tido aje all the way
hhehehhehe

plan that today gonna go tampines
dah lame juga tk gi sane
but 1st ting 1st
i fele like eating ice kacang!!
amacam iqah,jom cinta ice kacang!!!
heheheheheheh

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iqah,efwat n sa waited for me n fahmi below my block
fahmi n i was kinndda late
then we straight went to tampines
where we makan first!!!
then we went to some shop
and and and
then we went to take neo prints!!
omg been ages since i last went to take neoprint
the plc was damn cramp lah for 5 ppl
but we manage to take
i loikeee
lol
then we lepak at the rooftop for a while
near 10 security guard naik ckp time out
dh nk tutup tempat nye
punye lah cepat
i still remember got once when we sat there till near 11 aru balik
tk de org halau kite go off pun
hmmmmmmmm

so tmrw is school day
the last week of school
i better dont pon on any day tis coming week
n tmrw plan going down to bedok rez wif fahmi to mit up with iqah as iqah minta pertolongan dari fahmi to fix titi's guitar that is with her
tuesday plan to go job hunting with iqah after i end school tat is ard 11
chop chop i will go off after i end school this tuesday
i really want find a job
its like later holiday i will have nth to do
also i want to have some experience in working

im gonna end my post here today
good night n sweet dreams everyone

its gonna be very different to not see u everyday in school

2009-12-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

i spent my time just by thinking thinking thinking about u
coz im really missing missing u

a saturday
and all the way i stayed at home
no plan of going out
and nearly all day long i was stuck to my bed
with the weather being cold
with my blanket around me
and my laptop infront of me
it would either i'll be sleeping off my day in this cold weather
or all the way be infront of my laptop
for today
it was all the way infront of my laptop

my waist n stomach is still in pain
i tried doing sit up just now
i still cant do it
im still in pain
:(

i cant wait for this wednesday!
plan to go watch new moon with the sayangs2
hahahahah
kk
i have a feeling im gonna get sick really soon
n n
1 more week to school holiday!!
i want to work men
so money can come into my pocket
aiyaaaaaaaaaa

waiting for ur call

2009-12-02T22:40:00.006+08:00

OMG!!my com suddenly shut down while i was blogging thank god didnt lose it phew

today this happen:
-go school
-tot gonna be late,rush like mad till my muscle at my calf pain,when reach -_-,cikgu blum sampai dah

-had audit CA,thank god i could do it

-end at 11
-went j8 n window shopping wif gl n rh,bought a stitch diy thing,shoe lace n coin bank
-at 1 went back sch cos bf say coming to sch
-waited n waited
-at last exit frm sch near 3 or 4 couldnt remember
-went to paya lebar wif ted n bf
-bf bought clothes there
-then we buy lunch
-then go down to bedok
-lepak n eat
-something happen,lazy to type it out
-then ted nid do work
-go shop ,there he did
-then finish
-bf send me home
-at hm,asap something came up
-nid break money
-go drag my ass down to shop to break the money
-now here i am waiting for ur call

argh!!!!!!!! tmrw have NAPFA test
shit shit,im really scared about it
especially 2.4 n shutter run
very the nervous right nw

im sorry if im getting over the limit
im sorry i keep getting angry at u
im sorry if im too over protective
im sorry if i control u
im sorry for every mistakes i have done
im really sorry
i love u

2009-12-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

today was his last day at school
i had a mood swing
frm happy suddenly i would become moody
i is sad
he finish frm school oredy as he is jan intake student
i know we can still meet up but it would not be the same
hahax

so just now after i end sch ard 10.30
had a movie cinema going on in sc room
at first it was only me n fafa
then helina join
few minutes or hours or seconds
it was nw me,helina,irfan,ridhwan,fahmi,radhika,rasyidah
but some had to went off do their things

after that ended
i watched another movie again
but this time with fahmi only
lounge area dah jadi mcm rumah kite
due2 tgk tuu movie sampai tk igt dunia

first movie was a horror whille second was a comedy m18 i think
hahahah
shhhhhh
padahal i got a ca tmrw
n im still not asleep yet
havent even finish off my last review of the book
unit 1-4
but luckily since last week i hv been preparing myself for this ca
first time u know aziah gini mcm nye semangat for ca
maybe i dh kene wake up call kot
hahax
kk
going off now
to either continue my study or gaming
:P

i kept saying the opposite of what i want to say
n my ego n pride sometimes get in the way
i dont want to lose u but i keep making the mistakes that could make u go one day
i dont realise yet how lucky i am to have u by my side
im taking advantage of ur affectionate ways
keep wanting u to be like what i want u to be
im stupid
but nw i realise it
keep thinking n it became clear now
i love u for who u are
for how u can easily make me smile
when i see my frens hu are attach n doing sweet things
i wanted us to do the same too
stupid right
now i think it
why would i want to do the same thing
each person have their own inviduality
why would i want to copy n paste.
i wouldnt easily back down even when i know its my mistake
i too have my egoistical side
which nids to go down a lot.

i nid to stop being a selfish bitch
bcos one day im gonna regret being like this

2009-11-29T12:34:00.002+08:00

again and again im the one always making us have arguements
im always the one making small matter into something big
i keep screwing things up
im sorry

i cant believe it myself that i have u by my side
i kept thinking there's other girls out there wanting ur attention
yet here u are,giving me ur attention
i love u so much

2009-11-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

a nong nong nong time already i did not update my blog
been really lazy to do soo
shits going on all about

when i have plans
there's always something that will suddenly spring up and cut me of from
the plans i have made
im seriously piss off now
it was so last minute and they suddenly spring it up to me that we have to go there
like what the fuck lah!
my mood to study now also gone already

just make everything worse would u

schools a bitch
im getting to be lazy to go school now
2 days left only
n he'll be gone from school
hv 2 wks left
then im on school holiday
seriously cant wait for it

plans plans plans
what do we have plans for
now something else came up
im pissed
his pissed
i have no mood
if we meet up still,im gonna be pissed off
meet ,kalo lmbt
ard 6 dh nk kene jln
jumpe skejap aje buat ape
i dun like meeting just for a while
dah semangat tadi nk turun woodland
nw no semangat
cos go down woodland,later must patah balik to changi
fish lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and wooopido
im throwing my anger at him now
haiz

i seriously want meet him
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-17T00:29:00.002+08:00

CAs are coming
really depressed and disapointed with myself
always like this
starting of term yeah very the so into the topic
near CA
i die

my 1st time just now went to woodland checkpoint!
org jakun tadi!!
went with bf just nw
then we at lk 6,suppose to go blk 4
anytime i saw a blok,i say n point it out until he like "eh dun point cn?"
:P
wat to do,jaun mah,1st time u know go there
the boys clothing there like wow!!!very the nice u know!!!
i kept looking around in nearly all shop
until my head pening already
english aku baik kape
-_-"
got this one shop,from far i saw a doraemon towel
sanggup i run to it
-_-
its bloody cute!!
but the material is not soft
but still its cute!!!
hais,me n my doraemon

to go or not to go tmrw
hais
i really nid to concentrate on my studies right nw
sorry guys that i cant be there for u guys
its my crucial year now
all the best to you guys

whenever i see ur face
i cant control the movement of my lips
its like 1st day all over again
whenever i see u
my heart leaps with joy
and letting go of you is the last thing i'll ever do
i just hope u feel the same too

i love you

2009-11-13T12:47:00.001+08:00

test n common test are coming soon!!

gaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!

investiture had just pass by
wohooo!!
next left is passing down items n etc etc

next on my list is to go on diet
dah kene sound ngan org seh
boncit ku makin besaar!!!
ohhhh tidak!!!

can i just say that i really want to dye my hair again!!
n including rebonding!!

2009-11-02T13:44:00.002+08:00

3 days near 4 days straight i have been sick
coughing
feverish
runny nose
phlegm in my throat that is very stubborn one to come out
and still i go out n eat all kind of food
hehehhehe
at last today can not tahan anymore
n so i went to polyclinic with my mum
my mum can say this sumore to me

mum:"org go poly ngan matair,adik gi poly ngan mak"
me:"ehh biarkan ah"

i still gt my mum wat..
hahah
skali skala manje ngan mak tk slh kn
:P

bloody hell the antibiotic meds pill a bit big seh
lucky i cn easily swallow

tmrw i'll be back in school

and so im going to my lala land soon
bye!!

love is irrational,the more u loved someone the less sense anything made

teardrops

2009-10-29T22:40:00.005+08:00

muahahahahah!!at last eh i update with pictures eh!
long time i was in no mood to update
life been great
but up n down here
cant complaint much
still its a good life im hving
picture above was from going watch movie 500 days of summer with them
"puma!"
;) iqah knows wat it is,n even those who watch it will know wat it means.ahhaaah!

n so today my 1st time went to mediacorp
follow sa n efwat there ,collect tix,
1st time siol went there!
;)
also today my 1st time eating pastamania
ok lah
my toungue was on fire men eating the food!!
cili padi sumore!!
until the large lemon tea cup iqah bought ,i finish it up n even drank some of efwat water
it was damn spicy lah
>_<
then went to wisma atria where iqah shopping sakan
i was like woah!woah!!O_O
see all the clothes all
damn moolah!!!!

i was snooping around old files when i see the above pix!
hahahahhaha!!!
amcam model tk menjadi,
this was during dry run before the april intake camp

the pix below all when i went out jalan raye with my frens

y is it when we care about ppl
sometimes all we get are getting hurt

i am going to start collecting moolahs n one day i would like to buy a new sleeveless
and a flowy skirt

its never too much when its u

2009-10-28T20:03:00.003+08:00

i am feeling really insecure now
i do not want to have doubts on him
but i just cant help it
i need some answers
but i donno how to start the questions

i keep telling ppl to stop keeping everything inside of them n talk it out with others
but i myself am not doing it
its like im advising ppl to do so
but im nt doing it myself
-_-"

shit my left eye is in pain due to contact lens
damn it lah
i tink nt going to be using contact lens for a week or so
want bring the swollen down
even when i twitch its in pain
stupid right padahal
i knw cannot use it anymore
i go n use it today
n forgot to bring my specs along
ambik kau
my 2nd lesson
my eye damn tearing oredy
at last i took it out
n guess how i did my work?
it was FACT
where we had to use the computers
the computer somemore under the tables
my face was like glued to the table when typing in the info
dh macam nak masuk ke dlm computer pun ade
-_-"

nw i hav really learn my lesson
aiya!!!!!!

2009-10-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

stupid idiotic me
i gotten angry with him over small things
n i had a emotion breakdown just now
i felt like an idiot
i know he actually had to go there to do something
and yet i acted like a bitch
getting angry over this
something just tip my wire off
n i started to bawl like a baby
this what happen when i cant control my emotion
or when i keep in too much things without letting go
now i feel really stupid
why did i had to do that to him
confirm there gonna be consequences for this
haiz

GET WELL SOON

2009-10-11T12:36:00.003+08:00

NURUL ATIQAH!!

MY PART TIME GIRLFRIEND!

I REALLY HOPE U GET WELL SOON!!

IM REALLY SORRY THAT I CANT BE THERE FOR U

AKAN KU BERDOAKN BAHAWA ENGKAU AKAN CEPAT SEMBUH

I WANT MY EATING PARTNER BACK!!

GET WELL SOON MY PART TIME GIRLFRIEND!!!

2009-10-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

i realise this when we were in the bus
boy i have really fallen in love with u
n on that day too i have realise
tat i nvr want to lose u

just promise me that ur words are true
n ur feelings are true
.........
im one insecure girl

im bless to hv frens tat really care abt me
both new n old one
very the happy u knw
hahahahx
kay this wk gonna be jam pack with going raye outing
yay!!hahah!!
mampus boncit ku menaik..
-_-'
bye!!

feelings

2009-09-30T00:51:00.003+08:00

my feeling
my mood now
is like nth
i dunno why suddenly i felt like tat
bcos maybe of sum tings backfired??
haiz
i dunno why but i am really feeling down bcos of it

how i wish i can easily open up my feelings
i kept keeping it in and in
and the only way i can open up is tru msn with frens
when in real life i dun really do tat
maybe its bcos im better in opening up my feelings with words
rather than talking??
haiz

i'm just really am one selfish girl

kuar raye..outing

2009-09-25T16:21:00.003+08:00

kuar raye!!
kuar raye!!
kuar raye!!!

selamat hari raye!!

--------------------------------------------------------------

at long last yesterday i get to meet my gf n bf
all so long nvr meet
went to watch time traveller wife
quite nice but at the start i was really lost watching it
n
OMG!!
too many kissing scene
me n iqah kept whining about it
i was like urghhhh
too much lah seh
hahahah

then we went up to the roof top garden
ape lagi
camwhore !!!

cant wait for the next time we all go out
raye again!
hahahah..woah seriuosly tis yr i like none stop kuar raye..
byeeeeeee!!!!

kidnap my heart

2009-09-19T02:53:00.003+08:00

KiDnAP My HeARt

its been so long!
tat i didnt update my blog
ive been buzy as raya is coming
wah this yr puase i ket going down to geylang u knw!
and im a freak with inai now!
hahahahaha!!
only this season only yeah im in love with inai
i duuno why ah
heheheheheh

on the 18 of sept
went down to geylang with fam
buy this n that
n do inai again!!
muahahahahah!!!

on the 17 of sept
went outing with ian,ubai,aman,wan,raimi,is n rika
kecoh!!been long time have not been meeting with them!
we even went karaoke!
aman power lah seh!
hahahahahah!!!!
n wan fuyooo!!!

ok ....

and so dear ppl
only 1 day left to raye lah seh!
cant wait!!
i guess
hmmmmmm
just tat sum tings came out

fooooooooooood!
here i come!!!

man
i feel like eating ice kacang
iqah!!
ica kacan lup!
amacam!!!

hahahahahahx!!!

p.s:2 more days..3 more days

2009-09-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

im gonna rant sum shit in my private blog
really pissed off mood now
urgh!

johor

2009-09-12T03:30:00.000+08:00

and so this is how my day ends today
staring at the computer screen waiting for sahur time to reach
and also i an hour plus ago i just reached home from johor bahru
shopping sakan gila!!!!
bought new beg,new shoe n necklace
nt for raye kay
heheheheheheheh

but very tiring also seh
confirm tmrw gonna wake up late
gonna sleep ard 5+ i think
heheheheheh

good morning everyone!!!!

holidays!!!!!!

2009-09-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

school holidays are here!!!
1 more week to hari raya!!
n stuff!!!!
hehehehehehehehhehehheheeh
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
friday going johor my mom ask me to follow...
need to do stuff there for raya
aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
hahahahxxxx

im feeling scared
im feeling insecured
im scared
plz make this last
i have officially n irrevocably fallen for u

EXAM

2009-09-03T20:04:00.002+08:00

EXAM NEXT WEEEK!!
DIEE!!
GONNA GO MUGGING NOW
COSTING HERE I COME!

long long time

2009-09-01T13:00:00.001+08:00

omg long time i had left this blog untouched
okay so im just gonna update to see that this blog has been updated
-_-"
yesterday was teachers day celebration
i had a dance performance
1st time seh i dance
omg
kelakar gile
but luckily i didnt fumble a lot
scratch tat
i think i did
-_-"
and and
the jan intake!!!
congrats!!u have gotten ur ties!!
i was really happy yesterday when the school cheer for them after their oath ended
:D

so after the celebration in school ended all
me,fahmi,hazrol,ain n sharifah shahidah went off together
ade beberape mesyuarat terpenting
lol
padahal planing to go where
at last decide to go karaoke
before that we followed fahmi to his sec sch for a while
i was actually suppose to go to my old secondary school
im really soory guys
at last minute i ditched that idea

then after that we went karaoke
asal eh org nyanyi terpekik terlolong nanti voice dorang serak or hilang
i nvr
i want seh
-_-"
suare serak suare rock beb
lol
and then went to buke at kedai hawa at geylang
then jln2 hazrol nak cari baju
and at last went hm with sumone sending me home
:)
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

happy bday

2009-08-21T11:23:00.003+08:00

thanks to everyone for their wishes and presents!

i love evry single thing of it

now waiting for to upload pix

this yr i really had a good day on my bday even though it was spent at school

early morning only fafa n siti surprise me in sc room

then during exco meeting when suddenly siti n yana called everyone in n even the teachers

when suddenly lights out

they were singing a bday song for me n fafa while the cake with candles was being brought out

i was really shocked

omg

but i seriously thank u guys n luv u guys for this memorable bday day ever

woah

i feel mcm nk cry lak skrg

hahahahah

kidding kidding

and now i would like to say a shout out to

FAFA!!

HAPPY 19TH BDAY MOK!!!

MAY UR DREAMS N WISHES COMES TRUE!!

besok dah puase tau

puase jgn tak puase

ndp sum [pix

2009-08-15T01:40:00.002+08:00

hahahaah...this pix was when we went karaoke
cool tak my photo...ahahahah
with my purple socks summore...ahahahhaah

stomach virus

2009-08-12T21:56:00.002+08:00

been MIA for so long...hehehhe
sorry just in no mood to update..
and again the blogger tool box missing
no idea whether its my laptop or something else
and so i have been down with stomach virus
some sort like a stomach flu
somesort
whatever i eat or drink
will come back out
as in vomit
bleccccckkkkkk
it happen since midnight till 2 am
then in morning i tot ok lah..
go drink plain water
bleckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
it came back out
hence had to go to polyclinic
thank to iqah for accompanying me
lets just say total time there was like 3 hours
fuyoooooooooooooooo

national day did went out with iqah n co(efwat sa haikal syirah)
lawar sik firework die!!!!
then next day went out again
hahahahx..
go geylang
grandlink
at first wanted go kill some zombies
as iqah is officially hook to it now
hahahahha
but tak jadi as full house
so went down to play pool...most of us are newbies...mee too!!
but fun ok!
n our table is the most bising nye
kecoh!
org lain smue main senyap2..
we were like hey!!hey!!!
hahahahah!!
but still it was enjoyable!

trs tuesday sakit
n today also offday frm school
duno lah eh hw it hapen

i want see gi joe!!!!!!!!!

i have to sooooooooooooo catch up in my studies n all
be prepared for tmrw
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

testing out

2009-08-04T22:54:00.005+08:00

im trying to use photobucket to upload pictures
but
kepale pening siol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

out

2009-07-31T12:57:00.004+08:00

be warned
my post gt a lot of pic
revenge for few last days cn not upload pic nye passal
grrrr
n that up there boys n girls are mine n iqah shoe
lol
pink siol!!!!!

fahmi n wan
coughwanteachingfahmihowbematrepcough
lol

when bored in class
this wat i do!!
guiluan wallet n watch
cool kan!!the skin both similar!!
hahahahah

when the two mat reps meet
lol
jkjk

ppl lounging ard at the lounge area while i was climbing up a table to take this pic
monyet oi!!!

tat day
the pic above
was the day i stay alone in sc room for long
ahhhhhhh

the day before wan went of to korea
he like doing dumthing suspicious like tat eh behind the board
lol

n nazurah finding for biscuit!!!
but i knw lah eh hu finish up the biscuit!!
*point2 at fahmi*
muahahahha!!!
---below are post i do at school while atass with pix are done at hm---

wuahahahha!!!basket sak!

my laptop ,when i enter into the internet..i say the blogger tool gone rite?

now in school..idiot..the tool box there
but i did nt bring my thumbdrive!!

arghhh!!!

so for now just going to update some things all

i want go out today but at the same time i dun want go out

iqah ajak kuar but i dun want become lamp post sehh

arghhh1!

tmrw i want go out!

dun care!!

die die want go out

so it was a few days back when i go out with my titi n iqah!!

ceh my seh

bila mase aku own them pun aku tk tahu

been long time lah seh didnt meet titi!

oh gosh at last we break our virgin of going to tampines 1 rooftop!

hahahahah!!!

i was actually suppose to study

but terus tk menjadi

kt umah iqah

gi main psp die

n nearly fell asleep on her bed

hjahahahahah

2009-07-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

i've been wanting to upload picture in my updates but i duunno wat is wrong with blogger
u know when ur typing in the box post area,there should be a tool box,.mine is gone...i dun even know why

the feeling of jeolousy
hw i wish i can just delete tat feeling of
haiya

and shitmata
i think im gonna get sick again at any time now
keep sot set sot set my nose
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

dance dance

2009-07-28T00:15:00.006+08:00

RePLacEMENT

i actually wanted to upload a video of wan n fafa dancing around in sc room
bt im a bit lazy now
so u guys are save!!
lol
wan was starting to dance to jai ho and fafa was joining in
secretly i took out my hp n star video
yilik saw this already n believe it or not
the two of them didnt notice it
when actually my hp was right infront of me somemore
at last then did fafa notice it
hahahaha!!

having few probs here n there
hm
sch
studies i guess
last time i was looking forward to graduate frm ite
now
i dun lk foward to life after ite due to some reasons
and just nw at amk
a prudential man stop me n talk to me abt this package thingy
it makes me think
oh damn
i cant continue my life like this
im turning 18 soon
verrry soon
n i should start thinking abt my future shouldnt i?
hais
i hate going to be a young adult so soon
i want be a teenager always
n
n
n
i LIKE EMMETT CULLEN!!
lol
random seh
i think a good cry out will make me feel better
n
im jeolous abt somebody
>_<

do u noe tat u actually becoming someone that u soo criticise a lot of time before
dont even know if u notice it
but for once please look at the mirror closely
n think really deep
n look ard for once
look really ard

happy

2009-07-25T01:18:00.003+08:00

u see i ggood girl
when lepak
i do my costing also
hahahahah
but bad news
im still having this headache
n i just got the news that my bro is in hosp
no idea wats wrong thou
now waiting for any news

i think i may like u
:D
nth gonna stop me frm enjoying my life now
im really at my happy time nw
with my friends
that i really love a lot
:D

the rest is left unwritten
in private blog
as i feel it is not appropriate to put it in a public blog
bcos some things are just not meant to be read by everyone
especially if u are dissing or cursing ppl
plz do not put it in a public blog
cari pasal dikirakan
just my opinion
when u want to vent out anger
or piss ppl
why nt do it in a private blog

long last

2009-07-20T11:00:00.002+08:00

panadol strong
please make it go away
fucking head pains are really pissing me off
without warning it came back

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala

I can't lie lie lie lie lie lie
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched

lost n nvr be found

2009-07-20T02:27:00.003+08:00

It's not enough to say that I miss you

went to siti kakak wedding yesterda(its 2:33am oredy so considered monday already)

i cant go to sleep
my head the pain of it came back again
i dunno which part of it
but the throbbing n the pain is there
n i just noticed entire day i only had ate once which was at the org kawin..breakfast did nt eat..dinner did nt eat..wats happening to me???

im really glad to cleared out all my feelings now
my heart feel lighter at this
it really feel good telling it to someone who can listen on in this case chat with me
lol
thanks wan,my buddy n very good fren
and also thx to iqah for nvr fail making me laugh even when im really down
today my first time
i nearly cry in public
it hit me right in my heart n brain
that what i have done is truly stupid and idiotic
if only sorry can change everything back to the way it was
dream on

its true
when something is lost than u will realise that it is actually important to u
this was made realise to me by rizal
falling in like..not love i say..not love..crushes n infactuation
all part n parcel of being a teenager
sayang n cinta
like n love
very different
n love..a very strong word
so easily use like breathing air
is y at times we dun even believe in it
but now i can say

aku sayang korang kerana korang kawan baik aku dan selalu disini utk aku
cinta aku blum dpt mencari
tapi skrg lebih important adalah pelajaran ku
dan kebahagian ku dengan kawan kawan aku..

talking with someone really help out alot
so ppl dont keep things to urself
talk to someone u trust n a veri good fren of urs when u have problems
its not good keeping things in
thx to those who make me open my eye big big
lol
ciaos

what if it is really a migrain im having??
the pain disapear for 3 days but nw it suddenly came back
my headache is really painful

radar

2009-07-19T01:36:00.004+08:00

Confidence is a must

Cockiness is a plus
Edginess is a rushi want a man with confidence

having conflicts with my own heart
fucking asshole
i really hate this part
lets just go with the flow
lets look at wat will happen
but i'lbb be out of this before u can even say bye
bcos im the type if i think ur wasting my time
than im out
this is a chance im giving u
use it well
cos im not the same as before
the growing of age has made me change
im nt the naive girl i was before
i hate shyness
i love boldness

2009-07-19T01:05:00.004+08:00

am i wasting my time?
i hate being hurt over n over again
who dont
lets change it
how bout its our turn to hurt them
but i did it once
by avoiding R and not even giving him the reason
i just dissapear like that
no wait
that was the 2nd time i did it
nw remembering this
i regret doing it
i feel like saying sorry to him
yet i kept hindering from doing it
hope hes happy with a girl who is better than me now

below are just pix

my lup

2009-07-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

my girlfriend!
lol
went out to watch harry potter half blood prince
TOM FELTON IS HOT!!OMFG!!

the tix got meaning a bit to the numbers n letter
hahahah
iqah n mine inside joke

we were waiting for the bus when i was looking the tix when i saw this
iqah knows
i was suddenly laughing already..
ahahahahhah...

i soo wanna watch this again if i can
once the dvd for this movie come up i am so gonna buy it
cos this movie have more draco malfoy screen time
i love draco malfoy!!!!

forget u

2009-07-17T11:46:00.002+08:00

let's make it official right now
i'm ready to fall for you

15 july 2009
went out with iqah to go seoul garden
she really wanted to go there
n thanks mighty a lot iqah for blanja-ing me!
i love love u alot!
hahax

so today gonna meeet up with her again for our movie dates
harry potter lah sei!!!
i cant wait!!
i think im gonna squel when tom felton who act as draco malfoy come out on the screen!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
me n iqah kept meeting each other eh
dah macam matair
memang pun!
lol
jk jk
mampus MGAsshole die boom me nanti
hahahahahahha

to MGasshole
to pun kalo die dpt go my blog lah eh
this is how happy she looks when u know what
hahahahah
tgk tgk i give u sneak peek
lol
as usual yesterday go lepak at skatepark(ohh rhyme!!)
with iqah deary
>_<
then we crap alot n make jokes
dah mcm rumah sendiri we due make there
terbaring like no one business
ni dikate kan girls
lolx

below a pic of my hair in the sunshine
hahahah
after dying it
only in sun cn see
:D

dates

2009-07-16T23:36:00.004+08:00

150709/160709

this is something random me n iqah think of just now when i meet her n lepak
as usual lepak place at skatepark

for aziah dreamland boyfrens:
anime-wood:naruto
bolly-wood:hitrik roshan
holly-wood:tom felton
singapore-wood or reality-wood:BBburik :P

for iqah dreamland boyfrens:
anime-wood:sasuke
bolly-wood:amir khan
holly-wood:robbert pattison
singapore-wood or reality-wood:MGasshole :P

everything is just for the sake of fun joy n laughter ok.
hahahaha

i hope i did the right thing by giving us a chance again
i just dont want the same mistake to be done again
slowly my heart is opening for u back
but for now i cant say i love u
i can only say that i have fallen for u
and that im yours

Let the past be the past babe
see we've all made mistakes
but i won't judge its okay
i just wanna be honest
please don't let me hit the ground
stay around, don't fade away

can i trust you, will you trust me
will you be my family
be my friend and my lover
will you ride or die for me
we're only human, we all got problems
i know it might sound like a dream
let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms
you and me, free
life can be so hard
be free to fall in love
trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me
free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

boy i need to know that
if life knocks us down
can you hold on, will you step it up
i'll be your one and only
let's make it official right now
i'm ready to fall for you

can i trust you, will you trust me
will you be my family
be my friend and my lover
will you ride or die for me
we're only human, we all got problems
i know it might sound like a dream
let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms
you and me, free
life can be so hard
be free to fall in love
trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me
free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

now i see things differently
i want simple things
just wanna be happy
love is what i want
and i hope you feel the same
so lets go
its just you and me, free fallin

can i trust you, will you trust me
will you be my family
be my friend and my lover
will you ride or die for me
we're only human, we all got problems
i know it might sound like a dream
let's be free free free, you and me

i just wanna free free fall into love's arms
you and me, free
life can be so hard
be free to fall in love
trust that you'll be strong enough to catch me
free free fall in love's arms, love's arms

i just wanna be free to love, love, love...

a pain in the head

2009-07-14T09:17:00.002+08:00

i better have some updates before someone kills me
*stare at iqah*
nah!just kidding!
well its been effing 5 days already and im still having this major cough
and another sick is that having constant head pain
it just like now
typing things out
my head will have like someone pressing it hard
and when walking ,my vision will suddenly blur out and i feel like fainting
how to go to school u tell me?
my mc today will be expiring but tomorrow have to see how
if the fainting spells(wah dah mcm harry potter gitu eh ade spell2)
still continues i have to stay at home and thursday then go to school
have ACC ca on thurs which i must say i am simply not ready yet for it!
shit going off my head is in pain again..
sayonara!!

i want to give us a chance but i myself am having doubts in this
what if things from the past will happen again
maybe i should just throw this doubts away n dive myself into this??
or just let time do its job?

sick again

2009-07-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

u are my resting place in my heart

woohoo!!
get mc for two days!
when morning wake up i was having coughing fit
i think revenge of the watermelon
-__-
the night before i ate 3 watermelons
when i know i cant really eat a lot of watermelon
especially the really cold one
but stubborn me i go and eat
ambik kau!
terus sakit....

gonna go eat meds now n sleep!
night!!

im going to try throwing it away

sad sad day

2009-07-06T17:46:00.005+08:00

sch reopen

today school reopen
and i dunno why some of my classmate like hyper
especially rong hui
she keep singing and singing
and i cant help but join in too!!!
hahhahahah!

i forgot to say!
that day, 1 july 2009 went east coast picnic with the girls!
enjoy gila!!
n yesterday i started emo while on msn
due to today start school
-__________-
im soo llazy to update the last few days hence why my blog was left to rot
-_-
im sad
i had somehow misplaced my thumbdrive
this is a 1st time tis happen
damn
i really really wish its somewhere in sc room
arghhh!!!

i feel like today school like pass by fast
ape tak nye
first class tk buat ape2 sgt,dtg cikgu terus tanye question related to H1N1
then do 1 question cikgu revise back cos a lot of us cant remember how to do it
-_-"
especially me

and just want to say
get well soon fafa and siti!!

i am relief that my project are all done
and urghh
my head is having a major pain right now
i really hope this off and on headache go off soon
hais
going off now!
byyye!!

do u ever wonder y we sumtime dislike someone at first but once u get to know more about them ,this person is actually a fun person n u were wrong at first?
this happens to me a lot of time
maybe im judgemental
or maybe i just follow others alot
but not now
not now

incidents

2009-07-01T00:06:00.003+08:00

we ignore those who adore us and we adore those who ignore us

iqah..be prepared
muahahah!

yahoo!!tmrw gonna have picnic at east coast with girls
hope everything will go okay
and and just nw something happened in ntuc
me and iqah was buying things just now night at there
when at the cashier place she saw yg bende2 display dkt cashier
n saw this one box
she also ask lah wats that n pick it up
guess what it was
A CONDOM!
hahahahahahah!!
her face priceless lah seh after she know it was a condom

and another happen during the time we went bukit batok
i had promise to u iqah i am so gonna blog this
actually i forgot bout this incident
and iqah accidentally reminded me of it
muhahah!
in real life i can even re-enactment this scene seh
we took the mrt from bedok to jurong east
so at jurong to go to bukit batok had to take the center mrt
the center mrt had arrived and iqah confident tot take the mrt opposite
i at that time also a bit blur
but later a bit i knw we nod take the middle train
so she n i quickly rush into the middle train
best thing was iqah didnt stop in the train
she went over to the other side while i stay inside the train!
she was like eh quick2! come to the other side
i was like oi this train lah go bukit batok!
sum sort like that lah
all the way i cannot tahan laugh at her
omg
that is really a kodak moment seh

another thing happen
i dunno this happen when
but it still in the train n me n iqah was near the door
so i was talking n talking with her when suddenly i bang my head onto the door
damn pain siol!
i think that happen bcos the mrt shift or something ah
-_-
it seems alot of incident happen in the mrt
i still remember got one time i was sleeping while standing up in the mrt when my head bang loudly on the pole
lucky no baluku sehh
ok lah thats all for today
bye!!

"muke sememek ku"

i hate waiting for people but i luv people wait for me
wth!

private

2009-06-30T00:56:00.001+08:00

hahahaha
officially have a private blog!
n the inspiration was given by iqah
lol

It doesn't matter how long it has been.
Time doesn't do anything if your heart doesn't want to move on

balls

2009-06-29T02:23:00.004+08:00

It doesn't matter how long it has been. Time doesn't do anything if your heart doesn't want to move on

n start off with iqah STEAMING face!
wtf!
she was eating fries when suddenly she hold on to this one fries that is shown in this pic below

and guess what she said
"one sided ball"
O_O
and i wanted to take pic
see her face!!

iqah pervert siol!!!
LOL

so yesterday(sunday as now its like 2:28am oredy)
went to ikea
i dunno whats wrong with me
the bus kan free shuttle bus to and from bedok-ikea
this happen when going back to bedok
i think at that time i was talking to my future bro-inlaw n my hP pouch which i keep my ezlink card inside was oredy in my hand
when i enter the bus by future-bro-in-law dah wannt stop me oredy from...
TAPPING MY EZ-LINK CARD
when i notice what i was doing
the driver was looking at me with the WTF look
i began to burst in laughter damn loud
WTH
i wanted to tap my ezlink card on the FREE SHUTTLE BUS
my sis was in the bus oredy n she heard sumone tapping ezlink card
but wat she didnt knw was that
IT WAS HER OWN SISTER HU DID THE STUPID THING
hahahahahah!!!
i think because i tired oredy ahhh
hahahahah!!!

and tats all for today!
oh this just sumthing i tot of in my mind
like a story thingy
it sucks
i know
----------------------------------------

my heart was beating wildly when i say the familiar t-shirt from far
he was seating on the bench with a friend
n the shirt he had on was very familiar
my heart was beating wildly while my palm began to sweat
in my mind i was thinking all sorts of thing
is it really him?
did he really came here?
when i step nearer
i let out a sigh of relief
my eyes was playing with me
it was actually another person n entirely different t-shirt
what make the t-shirt familiar was its colour
the colour of the t-shirt was entirely the same t-shirt he usually wear.
my heart started to calm down a bit
i was feeling both relieved and dejected
i was relieved that it was not him
but another side of me had really hope it was him
coming after me,
wanting answers,
wanting reasons..

just hope with all my heart that i can stay strong from the beginning to the end
only few months left
im gonna cherish every moment i have n enjoy my life to the fullest everyday
i hope

ps:iqah at the wedding i really had a great time PW!!muahahahah!!!

Sending off

2009-06-25T00:04:00.007+08:00

wHat If I sAy i wAnT to Get Back

so to start off
basically went to airport to send ARFIAN off as he was going to LAOS for a week
bloody hell
Get to take plane!!
haikdush
i never take a plane before seh
haishhh...
but nvm going on with the story
met up with rika, ian, wan n raimie
all long time never see seh
and i must say when i wanna say raimie name which sumtime we called remy
i get tongue twister
why?its because his name is very the near to someone names
i dunno why though
then after ian got in
me,wan n raimie we wanted to lepak n have no idea where to go
at last we decide to go to sempang bedok bcos i was suddenly craving for teh tarik
lol
dunno why
weirdo me
ahhahaah!
and tomorrow gonna go west mall with iqah!
actually was suppose to go erm last few days but was canceled
so we going tomorrow
muahahahah!!

and now im reading my 2007 blog
omg i laugh till my stomach in pain
now i have question in my mind
like how did we get together??
did he get to knw frm a fren tat i liked him during our secondary school time?
hahahx...confirm gonna laught my ass of if get the story..hmmm
gonna dig back more into my memory lane
tis is why its good to have a blog or diary yada yada
u can run back tru ur old memory n laugh at ur self.hahahha
byee!!
oh wait
last pic of the day or raimie the stoning guy

byee!!!

he didnt notice i guess when i took tis pic of himm
muahahah!
byee!!!

lepaks

2009-06-23T00:18:00.012+08:00

hold the heart together just by a tape

aND SO!!
today went lepak with the girls
at 1st meet up with iqah first
nd i got to eat ice kacang! i dunno why but the first thing i was thinking
before meeting iqah was i WANT ICE-KACANG!!
lol
then went to survey each handphone shop that have repair to repair iqah hp
and while waiting we go lepak at skatepark
where
deng deng deng
meet aidil n boo keong!!!
hahahaha!!
so unexpected lah see them!
wow
i've been regulary updating my blog eh
now can lah holiday time
when school reopen..hmmmm

ok this was request by titi
she say to say this first before anyone continue on
plz be warned
the next pic is u gonna see iqah orgasm/steaming face!
muaahahahah!!!!

actually i was taking my own pic then having finish loading i shift the phone suddenly come up is iqah steaming face!!

so around 7 like that went off n continue lepak at bawah blok farah
she brought this cutie down!

iqah tgh bribe the kid with water..lol
jkjk

and tomorrow plan go westmall with iqah!
both of us have NEVER
i say again
NEVER go there
hence we gonna break our virgin of NEVER going there tomorrow!
muahahahh!!!
sayonara!!

the path we've walk together
the words we've shared together
the nights we've stayed up together
i want to erase them

Mission 1 accomplishes

2009-06-21T13:51:00.007+08:00

u make my head spin when you're nearby

wooohooo!!mission number one accomplished!!
i have finally clean up my room!!
pheww
yesterday slept around near 4am+ but still wake up before 11am
like fuyooooo
usually if i sleep damn late i'll be waking up around 1pm
but this past few days been sleeping late n manage to wake up early
so just now after wake up i was like walking aorund the house dunno wha to do
at last make up my mind to clean up my room
abiss
i took the speaker from my brother room then plug into my laptop.
BOOOM!!!
.start blasting off my music n cleaning at the same time
hahahahahahahah

and now gonna start my slacking
and no before that gonna do some sit ups 1st
heheheheh
im soo gonna want have slim tummy before school reopen
must jaga the food i eat also
aiyaa
temptation temptation!!
ok gonna go off now to do sits up!!
byeee!!!!

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(edited)

hahahahha!!i cannot make it lah sei
i got a confession to make
after sit up
i go eat maggi n nasi goreng
hiyakdush!like this when can i have slim tummy!!
aiyayayayay!!!

the memories of u and me
keep coming back into my mind
maybe i missed what we had
or maybe i just missed the feeling of it
when i began to pondered and think of it
yeah i just actually missed the feeling of it

two face

2009-06-20T23:46:00.008+08:00

i dont feel a part of it anymore

ok!!hellooo!!
just arrive home from outing with iqah n titsss
n i mean titi
ehehehhehehe
ok veri random now
2 more weeks till school open
and here what i plan
to slim my tummy!!
gonna nid do sit ups now
aiya...can i do it?
my goal is before school open must slim down my tummy
verrry the buncit!!!!!
when stand up cannot see lah
but when i sit..
fuyoooh!!
ok now change topic...

pittttttttttttt

wahhhhhhh tomorrow i hope got plan
im sick of just slacking around at home as actually got things to do lah at home
like cleaning up my room thats like tong sampah terbalik
but as usual i kept postponing it
i seriously in no mood to do cleans up
haizz
and also i will only do it when im alone in my room with no one kacau
then blast my music off n start dancing n at the same time cleaning my room
lol

gonna upload pix n start off with.....

siti monyet!!!

she went super high lah sei!!!
n beside her was nicholas
bloody hell!
im the one downstair getting headache looking at them so high up!
fuyooooo!!!!

ok so today at last didnt stay at home!!!
muahahahhaha!!
went out with iqah n titi
at 1st we really didnt have anywhere to go and at last watch movie
the ghost of girlfriend past at 7.30pm
n n n
i at last went to TAMPINESS 1!!!
at last!!!
ive been wanting to go there and at last i step into it
but kesian iqah got stalker sort off
hahahahahah!!
and now picture time!!!!

my bro shade lah sei..not mine..
i think when use it my nose disappear
:P

i dunno why but i like this pic above the best!..lol

and i guess its time to say goodbye!!!

we kept saying about others having two faces
yet do we notice our ownself being two face?
sometimes we do it unconciously as to get in both good sides
i started to notice i am sometimes a two face hypocrite
but now i have realise this side of me
i made a promise to myself to stop this
but i need sum help
as i cant do this alone

forgive n not forget??or none at all

2009-06-20T12:05:00.003+08:00

why is it when we say to forgive n forget
we tend not to
and each time there's arguments
things from the past will be brought back into it
i dont believe in letting things out
when in the end in the future we're gonna talk n fight about it again
and again

this is all from my point of view
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i cant kick this feeling of missing someone
its either i miss this person companionship
or just miss this person
hahhahhahaah!
such random things huh
and so today is saturday n the sky is so clear
yet im at home bcos i cancel a plan due to not a lot of ppl going
i wanna a whole lot of us go rather than just a few of us
that will be soo not the best

and and last but not least

u u u u i syg u...
muahahahahahahah!!!
that may only be understood by iqah...
X_X

sensitive emotions

2009-06-19T10:25:00.005+08:00

i told myself to stay strong
yet in each moment of my life i break down
my sensitive emotions keep getting the best of me

at last change new skins!
but i like my old skins
but yesterday after go home from camp n log on to my blog
the skin all gone
image shack say the image bandwith something something

n
yesterday went to tampiness sc camp
it was fun!
n i had a great time meeting old frens
n making new frens alike hahahahah

the more i told myself not to care the more it seems i want to care

it seems u guys arent content with whom my frens are
if u dislike them doesnt mean i must follow too

day by day

2009-06-17T23:45:00.003+08:00

JuSt A BrEaThE AwAy

muahahaha!!cant wait this sat gonna meet arfian!!
lame gila dah tk jumpe this bro of mine
:D

n today just the 3rd day of holidays n the 1st day i stayed at home yet i feel damn bored oredy
omg!!

yesterday had a blast time chatting with iqah n titi
we started to talk on what we look in boys
to dates dos n dont sort off
lol
all of us do look for something in the person we like dont we?
then when i say what i look for
iqah asked i dun look for loyalty meh?
why she asked that is because i just state that i just want sumone who can always be there for me
n can make me smile when im down
loyalty
who dont want loyalty?
nearly everyone wants sumone loyal to ourself dun we?
or is that just to my thinking/??
hmmmm

day by day
i kept thinking
i better start doing things that i want to do
rather than looking back and regret that i never do it
but i need the courage n strength n support

im suppose to be a sleep now bcos need go camp tmrw n blum pack bende for bsk lagi
aiyoyo
hahahhax..
better go off now
bye!!

hats off

2009-06-16T21:33:00.004+08:00

Am i CraZy Or FaLLiNg In LOvE
Is It ReAL oR JusT aNotHeR CrUsh??

muahahahah!!!
can upload photo back oredy now gonna revenge upload a lot lot of photo ...lolmuahahahah!!!
gonna be randoming uploading pix!!
1st victim!
iqah!!!!

2nd victim!!!
haqim!!!
oi!!bila nk lepak lagi!

i dunno just what rizal is doing in both picture

muahahahha!!me n nazura was laughing all the way looking at wan carrying my bag..
mcm turtle!!!
:P

sum alleyway when going to sumwhere i cant really remember

so just now went to NUS for graduation 2009 of all ite college there n student councilor go there help out like ushering n backstage duty ect ect
luckily men meet with eileen n derick
and at last met up with the other tamp n macperson sc
NUS ah so big!!
we even get lost lah!
ask direction get wrong one
hahahaha!
n in the bus derrick kept saying one more stop one more stop
luckily correct stop we go down at
phewww

my cousin got the merit award!
i was doing the ushering when suddenly saw my cousin!
wow!
congrats alif!

bla bla bla
had fun around n jokes n stuff
then went home
me n aton bounce back from joo koon
we become jakun
fist time go pass pioneer n joo koon
the place there like veri the sunyi like that
bounce back all the way to bedok
n now here i am at home

bye!!!

i only have one wish

in my mind

2009-06-14T22:49:00.007+08:00

omg!
at last get to upload picture!!!
actually got a lot but for now this is all i will upload

so now start on with camp pictures

1st group above is zhiyun group

2nd group above is yana's group

3rd group above is sangeetha's group!

4th group above is attun's group

5th group above is sharifah's group

this is when the whole camper's playing pass the plank

see the little squirrel?
i was at my station when it was amazing race time(racing with the sonic)
i was walking around while waiting for the group
then saw this cute squirrel!!!

u see u see doraemon puzzle!!

rabbit!!rabbit!!
cute kn!!!

next on while doing business law

hohoho...mr dracula!
hahax..he help us for the video

wah this part i was trying to remember my script
really hard leh as i have stm
aiya

my group members
serene
gui luan
rong hui who is camera shy ah??

wahhh!!today i really sleep men!
during camp i didnt feel my leg aching all
but today at home
BOOM!
all pain
lol
the camp was great n im loving the jan o9 camp commitee ppl!!
theyre really fun ppl!
i nvr really tok wit some of them before
but now getting to know them
n they're fuyoo!!
best!!

next on track:
project
afer camp thingy

sayonara!!

some feelings cant be just said in i love u
i love u are overused
now we dont even know who really meant it
as we can easily said it to anyone

this is all i can do for now

2009-06-09T20:24:00.006+08:00

things kept coming out in my head
both sch stuff n personal base
i tried to put personal things aside when doing school stuff
but when doing nothing
this personal stuff just creep into my mind
i know sometimes its good to talk it out with a fren
but im just not good at telling this stuff to others
as i dun even know who to trust
those i have trusted with my secret?
suddenly got to know they are the one who break it
now plz tell me who to trust
n i hope with all my heart
i wont be to the old me
where i dun trust anyone at all

argh!!
i kept trying to upload picture into blogger
and always cannot!!
i dunno why!
so once again my post will be pictureless

just now had a grooming session at ite macperson
with tamp n macperson sc
woohoo!!
at last got to see those we never see long time oredy
n the two ppl who always kena tease was rizal n fafa
n another two is siti n fazly
sad sad
haahahahah

im really piss off
i was doing my video editing when suddenly
KABOOM!!
my laptop auto shut down by it self!
like toooooooooooot
wat happen man!
haishhh
lucky havent alot yet edited.

omg camp is coming just in few more days
n so is dateline for business law!!
i wish i could split myself into two
but hais
i better stop updating n get cracking to fnish edit the videos
adios!!!

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(edited)

arghhhh!!!
i feel like banging my head to the wall
(which i did before last time)
i done n FINISH
my edited parts of video
when my own cleverness!!
go delete it!!!
wth!!
wat was i thinking abt !
n now i have to redo again
n here i tot by 10pm i can get early sleep tonight
big hope
haiiisssssss

how long
can i withstand this pain
how long
can i run away from this
how long
can i keep it all inside
question ask:
how long?

just cherish the moments n fun times while i still can
may not know
anything can happen the next day

BAPO

2009-06-06T21:56:00.005+08:00

LOsT iN DiReCTIoN

im like a person who has no direction or area to go to
when i heard my fren have think up of things to do if they couldnt continue their studies to poly
i realise im taking things to lightly
but im that type of person
i really take things one step at a time
LIGHTLY

and one thing for sure im not a speaker
when i get angry at things i will just write it down
but this thing really make me agitated n pissed of at myself
i kept running away from things
when i know myself that running away wont solve anything
n yet still now i kept running away
i have a part of my brain blocked off all those things
i do not want to think of those things

why i kept writing all this down here again n again?
its to remind myself
i cant keep going on like this
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omg! i kept cracking n laughing while watching sum funny video at youtube
n learn new word
"bapo"
a korean word mean fool i think
-_-"
sojust now early morning wake up oredy to do videoing
wah can die lei when editing the video but at parts i laugh to myself until my fren think i crazy
i think sooner or later im soo gonna get sick soon as u knw urs truly dun really take care of her health

omona!
tmrw goonna stay home to do some school work!!
n today night anime watch!!
that if i am not asleep
woohoo!!
-_-"

what satisfaction do u get when u kept teasing me about him when he's right there

moving away

2009-06-04T21:18:00.004+08:00

i think i prefer myself to be kept buzy or to be surrounded by my frens n kept laughing n joking around like nobody business

maybe its bcos when in that situation i dun have to think abt things

regarding about emotional way.

but i just cant escape from it

when otw home in the bus

the thoughts just suddenly come creeping into my mind

n unconciously tears started to escape from my eyes

n at alone times my heart kept like being in pain

im not a speaker

im a writter

i kinda miss some of my friends

n i also kinda miss sum companionship

but i just cant make time for them

when i have free time i will be slacking my ass off at home

trying to get back my sleeping time

haizzz

now damn buzy with my business law project and sc april intake camp

i wanna thank ann, suganthi,kasturi n wan for helping out in our videoing

n my group member for beinng patience with me

n i kept sleeping late always!

aiya!!

n im still in sc room now

gonna go home sooooooonnnnn

sayonara!!

i dont quite know

how to say

how i feel

those three words

are said too much

they're not enough

(snow patrol)

Sc Probation event

2009-05-25T11:46:00.011+08:00

last saturday was a blast man!!!
i really enjoy the day!
you probation rocks n u guys have done the best for this event!
i really enjoy minglling n talking with those probation that i never talk with before
it really was a blast!
you guys did a great job!!
im proud n happy of you guys!
hahahahahx!!

mr chef aka amyrul

me n daryl

yana n her jagung
lol

some of the probation girls n me!

presenting mE!
after kena paint flour all over my face!

woohoo..nice lipstick ms president

all those muke yg kene saboh
top:xin yi,me,mervin
bottom:jialing(sp?),sharifah n tina

cyclop aka fahmi
kesian die.hes time in the flour a lot of ppl tonyoh(sp) kepale nye
hahaha!

ni adik cyclop..half face aje aka fafa.jr

fafa n me..aug sister
1 day n 1 year apart..
cool kan!
lol

the best game ever!!!
haha
n while fafa lying down on my stomach
gt free entertainment!
my stomach was making sounds!
omg!lucky she's the one lying down on my stomach
hahahahaahx!!

peace ya'all

i like it when u smile
:P

stupid fool

2009-05-23T10:03:00.003+08:00

i feel so stupid
and like a hypocrite
all along i kept looking at one side
not knowing about the other person side
i kept saying things without really knowing the person
i feel so stupid
its my fault
for not trying to knw both side of the story
as they say
in every story
there's two side of it
its really was immature of me

its really true i guess
its because we dont really know the person hence
why we say things about her and kept pointing out
her mistakes even if it was small n will make it into a big matter
i've learn my mistake
frm now im gonna try and look at both sides
its nt gonna be fair at looking at one side of the story only
im really a stupid fool

after some talk
i began to realise
ppl sometimes dont see the good things we have done
but once we do a mistake
even if its small
ppl will keep talking abt it
even if it was a thing of a past
i wonder why when we do the good things
no one really notice of it
but when we do a bit of mistake
bam...
as days past by
i kept learning new things
and frm now on
on impt things
i cant be a immature brat
i need to think which is right n which is wrong

sometimes i find it weird n stupid
why do we keep calling back the past
a past is the thing of a past
any mistake we did in the past
we should learn from it
even if we keep saying about the past
nothing can be change
it is the past
the present is wat is most important now.
we just have to learn from the mistake we have done
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yahoooo!!!
omg i need to go out at 11 and yet i still havent shower now
i cant wait for the probation event later on at punggol park
it's an event that i have been wanting to go since the new probation come in
uh oh i think i go shower now
need to be at ang mo kio by 12!
ahhh!!!!
on saturdays i usually by that time i just wake up one
today special
must must wake up early
heheheheheh
byee!!

the 3 words

2009-05-16T22:17:00.004+08:00

"i love you"
That word is now Overused, Underestimated Over exaggerated & Misunderstood.
It was once a wonderful thing to say But now it can be used against someone.
This word is pretty powerful because its left undefined No one can tell you what it is,
how it feels and how it can be imagined. Math can't decode it, English can't define it,
and science can't explain it. You can't imagine it. Until you've felt it. You can't say it, until you mean it.
(from the internet)

those sentences are really deep

i was reading a story in quizilla.com when one of the story

the author had wrote this

im starting to feel lazy going to school now

i feel like the person going to school is just my body

n not me

seeing him,yes it does make me happy

however at the same times my heart just have the feeling of being twisted

like someone tear it apart

but no matter what life has to go on

i am happy enough to have what i have now

-----------------------------------------

i wish u could smile from ur heart again

n that happiness will always be around u

i hate seeing u frowning

n faking ur laugh n smile

CnE OuTiNG

2009-05-14T23:00:00.004+08:00

being in denial is better than knowing the truth

wohhooo!!!today had the first commitee CnE outing with the members
there were me,michelle,nurul ain,fahmi,xin yi n marlene. karen couldnt make it due to work
at first i thought of fo eat dinner at fork n spoon at toa payoh
but then while lepaking in sc room to pass the time as had to meet them at 7pm at toa payoh mrt station, fizah n aton bought kfc
and so i wanted to eat chicken!
so we went to eat at kfc
luckily ain stay at toa payoh hence she know where kfc is
i forgot oredy lah seh where it is

picture time!!
when we took whole group together,before that marlene go n ask a guy take for us...
luckily he kind n help us

me and the probation members
n just found out
marlene kecoh org die!
hahax

michelle n them

marlene n me...the random girll...kept laughing becos of her..hahahx

me n nurul ain..
guess wat!
we have the same birthday dates!
she also bday fall on the 20th august..!
in my life i just found 1 person who share the same date now its two!

me n xin yi,,,the quiet girl..hmmmm

fahmi n me
the suspicious guy

now below just some pix i take wif my phone

muahahahahah!!!

even though it was a small outing i had planned but it was still fun
n i get to knw them more
n thx guys for coming n hope u guys enjoyed the day!

how do you know that u really love that person?

giving up

2009-05-12T17:10:00.004+08:00

before i start emoing..i want to say something..

jeng
jeng
jeng
HaaPy BiRtHdAy FiZaH
aka MaMa YOgA!!
dah tua setahun...heheheheh
may all ur bday wish come true!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
what hurts the most is being so close

i feel like throwing everthing away

im on the edge of giving up

i just cant be bothered with anything now

i make myself to be oblivious to everything

i dont even know how to buck myself up

how do i even help to buck up on other things

im being ignorant to everything

and like before, i had said

im giving up on everything

but maybe one day the strength in me will come

and i may have the courage n strength to do the things that i need n must do

but for now

im sorry

im too near the giving up line that i cant be bothered anymore with whats happening around me

its not a good reason

i know

my heart now just isnt in this thing anymore

isnt in anything anymore

school

home

friends

everything

this isnt like me

i donno why im being this way now

everything i do all half-heartedly

even those important things

i kept trying to encourage myself to do it with more heart into it

yet it still the same

i donno when i started being like this

everything doing like"ah ok lah asalkan kerje abis"

whats happening to me

MC

2009-05-11T14:44:00.006+08:00

SmILiNg LiKe A FoOL

hehehehhe..
change song...
tangkap feeling sikit
lol

i notice my blog song always like rancak2 one
so ape kate i change to tangkap feeling one
>_<"

so today yours truly is on mc due to her eye got tembel
haishh.. .
and also gt a bit of white discharge
so i have to use the eye drop n eye something to my eye
haish
very troublesome

and so urs truly now am rotting at home and
trying to force herselves to study her business law
the keyword is TRYING...
want to open the book also susah
now gonna rest my eye for a while..
hehhe...
sayonara!!
all im good at is running away
im scared to face it
at times the truth hurts much more than the lies

Swollen physically n mentally

2009-05-10T01:05:00.006+08:00

and since yesterday

i have a wish
that i really hope can come true
and that is
MY LEFT EYE IS NOT SWOLLEN ANYMORE!

haiz..it is still swollen
and at times it will get teary n i will have the temptation of scratching it but i know
when have swollen eyelid
dont touch your eye with ur hands if it is not washed
if by monday it is not okay
i will have to go to the poly
polyclinic
haiyooo
ceh haiyo konon
padahal dalam hati hope to get mc
heheheheheh
:P

ps:english emo guys are hot

sick of crying,tired of trying,yeah im smiling but inside im dying

SwoLLeN

2009-05-08T22:12:00.005+08:00

HaNya DaLAm MiMpIkU

omg!! at last i clean up my photos folder in my laptop n thumbdrive
i just cant stand folders being very messyyy...verry hard to find for other files
as usual on fridays me n guiluan became crazy in class
usualy last year it will be me n jamilah
now its gui luan turn
ahahahx..
we also dunno why on fridays we become crazy
maybe because the weekends are here!!
but tis weekend i dun think im going out
have to do research on heroes n villains
n study business laww
n n
my left eye is swollen lah!
long time never happen now hapen again!!
eeeee!!!
even when i blink my eye can feel the painess of it
if by monday still not ok,im going to doctor man
i wish n hope by monday it will be okay...
haiz

it was raining cats and dogs in school just now n luckily i was seated in class oredy
if not mampus
then just now sempat watch army daze while waiting for 9 am as before that have morning briefing
wan was the one who open it then yilik join
i see no more chair so i drag a purple sofa thats in the exco corner near to the computer n lie down on it
amacam...baring sambil tengok
hehehehehehheeh

and so here are some pictures i lookie2 while cleaning up the folders

i really2 like this picture
nice right!!

the five chairmans in posing mode..
kat bawa nye picture i dont know what i was doing

this five picture of us can make story sak
im like going to dance oredy while fafa..ahh..
u gys try make the story..
hahahahx

ok with this i end my story for the day

night!!!

like the snow
they just keep accumulating
and like the rain
they will keep hiding
and like the moon
they will keep shining
and like the sun
they will keep burning

hate

2009-05-07T23:00:00.009+08:00

with this i end my own dream

i just come back to home now
i reeally am glad to have yi lik n li lian as my friend
for now i will cherish the time i have with all my friends
damn really tired but there's so many things to do n so little time
and and just now haru came back to school!!
omg i really really supeer duuper miss him lah!
LOL

i find this very ironic
u can advise people on things but yet when the same thing happen to you
you just couldnt use the advise u givent to someone else
even though its the same situation
tsk tsk tsk
the irony of it

OMG im doom...i own my teacher a lot of costing assignment
luckily i understand how to do
i better go and do now...
sayonara!

rasa cinta tidak boleh dipaksa
kadang kala kamu akan jatuh cinta dengan orang yang tak disangka
jikalau itu terjadi
cuba lah jangan menipu dirimu dengan mengatakan kamu tidak cintakan nya
menipu kan diri dengan begitu hanya akan membuat hati mu lebih sakit daripada menipu orang lain

in 2 months i've realise all along i have lied to myself
in 2 months i've realise the mistakes that i have done
in 2 months many things have happen
and in this two months
i have realise that from the start
the feelings for you had never really go away

mistakes

2009-05-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

i've realised n decided
im giving up

when u know u cant have that person then why should u still pursue him

ImpoSSibLe

2009-05-03T22:14:00.006+08:00

u took my heart away without u noticing it

oh man!!tmrw school oredy!
i kept wondering how u guys have long n manyy words
when u guys update ur blog
i even ask my friend about this
then i came up with the conclusion that maybe im the one who has nothing much to write in hence nearly all my post are filled up with photos more than with words
but
for this post i will try to post less photos n
more words hehe

i wanna longer break why?
monday blues kot
haiz...
actually its due to other reasons too
i just wanna run away from all this
but i know running away will not solve ur problem
like what i am doing on one thing now haiz

kesian kakak ku
her mission still havent finish frm 15 minutes ago
what mission?
trying to figure out her china phone
hehehehhe

im hook to jai ho song n metro station band!

cant believe this long weekend i reallly slack my butt off at home
i didnt even went out
just kept watching anime n movie n playing on face book n sleeping n eating at home
bgs juga
tk burn duit saya
phew

ok going to go to lala land soon..
sayonara minna-san

i kept doing the same mistakes over n over again
especially on one thing
its true then
moving on is imposible when that person is just beside u
n its like 5 days per week u guys will always meet as same school
but im thinking too much aint i
he doesnt even now abt my feelings towards him
pathetic

Ur CaLL

2009-05-01T00:56:00.007+08:00

damn
my stomach is still full
heheheh
the 18th exco today had an outing at victory food at arab street area
i think lah thats the place
:P
most f us try the murtabak
damn nice!!!
but the most pelik tapi benar case is that
yana eat her nasi goreng ikan bilis with curry!
1st time i see that
hahax..
but cannot blame her
the curry form that food place is very nice!!!

tomorrow schoool holiday lah seh!
heheheheh
no school
but still i have accounting homework
nvm long weekend
:P

u see...we 4 girls do luv our curry!

siti with her mee kuah
if got tom yam confirm she buy tom yam

bukak mulut mu besar2 siti...hehehhe

fyza was laughing not crying tauu...
n her face soo red!!
bcos..
:X
hheheheheheh

and now im hook back to ur call song by secondhand serenade
lolx

unconciously u have taken my heart with you n hiden it somewhere without even u urself noticing it

LoVe ThE RaIn

2009-04-28T19:33:00.005+08:00

i just notice
that for nearly every post i did not put the title
but at times i wonder
what is the purpose of putting a title to a post?
for me?
just random title will do
hahax

today school ended damn early
at 10 class ended oredy as my costing teacher is still on MC
but i went home around 11+ as finish up my accounting work first at school

at last i bought the flowy skirt i really wanted!
so after leaving school i went to geylang
at there
ma ai
BROOOOOOOOOM!
hujan pun turun dengan lebat nye
luckily got payung
but still i got wet
as hujan angin
angin die kencang gila!!!

i miss my girlfrens!!!
haishhh

doraemon

2009-04-27T19:53:00.004+08:00

cute kn the doraemon wallpaper i found in the internet!

and heres a story
once upon a time aziah n TATI was walking put of the school and was already near the coffee shop area
which I MUST SAY its really like 1 big field or 2 big fields away from the school
thats when aziah checked her bag
n dum dum dum
she forgotten her hp at the sc room!!
and so tati went to continue on his journey while aziah had to walk backed to school

my leg became cramp once i reach back at sc room
luckily my hp is in the sc room!
phewwww
but i didnt go home after that
i took a long rest first at the sc room
kepandaian ku terselah

at last went back home around 4
and while in the mrt from city hall to bedok
this one guy i saw is damn familiar lah
i kept peeking at him while at the same time reading my book
n kept thinking to myself
where have i seen him...
lol
very random sehhh

and heres when two guys who are so into the soccer game that they did not realise i took their picx
sabar aje tau aku dgn ni TATI
muahahahahah!!

ohoh!!
class just now was all brought forward as costing was cancel due to teacher taking mc so ended at 1pm...i was cheering for joy right infront of a teacher who came into the class to tell us
heheheheheh
but at last due to kepandaian ku terselah
i still went back home late
tskkkkk

im sorry
thats all i can say

im going m.i.a on u
i know its the most coward way out
n its ok if u will not forgive me
im trying to put a distance on us now
again i will say
im sorry
i dont want to lie to myself anymore
its worse than lying itself

u talk the talk but u do not walk the walk

even my friends had adviced me on this
to open my heart for u n to let go of him
but i cant
my heart just cant seem to let u in
let u in more than just a friend

some words are better left unsaid

what i wish for now is
to just be friends with u
n be like how we first became friends

my heart is still stuck to him

an end

2009-04-26T22:00:00.004+08:00

and here i am
while updating my blog
pooottt pooott
ku kentut!
:P
tahu iqah..tak perlu letak that in...
heheheheheheh

ku tidak tahu kenapa tetapi ku luvvvvvvvvvvvvv this two pix..especially the baove one
like so damn candid katekn!
hahahhahaah

i dunno why i did that pouted look when dah tahu confirm camera pecah...
X_X

it doesnt feel right at all
now i really know how it feels to like someone who is sooo near you and yet you cant have him
and i am happy when he talk to me about his problem
but at the same time my heart hurts when he talk about other girls
everytime i will keep on my brave smile
and kept telling him not to give up and all
yet
as times pass
i wonder
how long can i keep it up
how long can i keep up this mask
how long will i keep holding things in

lets just put things to an end
i dont want this to continue anymore
i think i have gotten the answer
i cant lie to my feelings anymore
i feel like im using u for my own purpose
and it feels really wrong

spring cleaning

2009-04-25T23:01:00.008+08:00

hello my dearss!!

sorri that long time didnt update and all
ofh f*** hu cares

btw heres all the photo during sc spring cleaning...

the 2 contractore worker
quoted by ridhwan himself
"the indian n thailand worker"

yana at all times was wanting n trying to carry the big n heavy things but always cant and at last!
tadaaa!!!she get to do it!

the reception counter;
for a while it was

the guy up there is ridhwan aka tati
:P

actually i wanted to upload todays photo also but too much oredy..
btw i watch 17 again oredy yesterday!!!
with mr suparman(as said by aton,hahax)
then just now went beach road with sis n etc
while waiting for sis n future bro in law to withdraw money
which the queue was damn longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
i started to take pix
using the burst method
n ask my nieces to join in
n hahahaahahah!!!the 2 of them enjoyed n kept laughing
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i am wanting to see someone that i should have forgotten about
and at the same time the feelings that i thought have been deep burried within are pouring back out
what should i do
im feeling bad with whats going on
two letters
rs

specs

2009-04-21T19:27:00.003+08:00

yay!!!!got my new specs today!
at long last i hv a new specs
hehehehe

and today didnt go home alone..at last lor got someone to talk with in the mrt
wan had to go tanah merah hence went back hm with him
confirm chop2 when going home alone i will be sleeping
either standing up or seating down
did i tell that at one time i was sleeping standing up near the door where u can lean at the side
at there lah
BANG!
kepala ku kene hentak the metal pole!
ish ish ish

ok continue with the story

then met my sister at bedok interchange and went to take my specs
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee
bummer for my sis cos her contact lens still not ready yet
hahahahahahah

aku sukekn die tetapi aku sygkn org lain

chocolate cakes

2009-04-20T17:27:00.002+08:00

ANd so on sunday which was yesterday i went to johor with my sis n my future bro in law family
we go there to hantar kain to buat baju for hari raya...
all the pictures are when we were in the car n during the long trip to johor!

this litle guy kept yawning n yawning when take his picture...

tgk kn he yawning again...
ape tak all of us were like awake so damn early..around 5.30 all of us started to wake up already
and believe it or not during shoping at tesco n while waiting for the queing line
at the cashier area i nearly sleep while standing up
>_<

and today i didnt go to school as i was having a bad case of diarhoee
after lunch yesterday at jb,which i eat thai tom yam mee,i kept shitting
counted up the time i kept going to the toilet to do the big business
it was around 6 times!
sakit oiii jubor ku!!

signing out now!!!

singing my lungs out just to say that
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